The saddest one ever lor!

Firstly, I'm gonna wish myself an early

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

'Cos I dont think I'll have the time to say it tomorrow as there is dtdp. :/ Its not that I'm complaining or anything la but, you know. Kind of sad that I cant spend the day with my family. Usually, we would be going out for dinner and then either have my cake blown at the restaurant OR go home and do it. We always do that and its like a tradition already!! Cant believe I'm sacrificing dance for this.

But oh well, I'm going to be sixteen already once it strikes midnight (although yes I know I still dont look like one yet) and it means I'm mature enough to understand this kind of situation and I dont feel anything near unhappy. <<<<<< HAHAHA THIS WHOLE SENTENCE IS A JOKE.

I. AM. SAD. !!!

Excuse me, but who wouldnt be right?!?! Who would rather spend their birthday dancing than heading out with their family?????!!!!! WHO. YOU TELL ME WHO. Again, just trying to make this clear, I'm not complaining. :B I'm not! Okay. Get that right.

Sigh, which comes to the conclusion, as the title says........................ THE SADDEST ONE EVER!!!! Yeah, its gonna be my saddest birthday ever I guess. T_T Fuck super-sweet sixteen, guess its never gonna happen to me eh? Sucks. I bet I wont even get a present tomorrow.

Yes, I'm gonna be planning a mini birthday celebration this weekend la. But honestly, its not as equivalent as celebrating on the actual day lor! So what if I get tons of birthday wishes on fb? Bullshit. (HAHAHA BUT STILL, SEND THEM OK!! LOL)

But one thing that I worry the most about is......................... Whether this is gonna continue. As in continue the new tradition of NOT going out to celebrate on birthdays. Uhh great, my insecurities are creeping me up again. Because maybe after this right, my parent might think that I'm kinda too old for celebrating BUT THATS TOTALLY NOT WHAT I THINK!!!

Fuck. Why do I have to be born in an Asian family, where birthdays arent really a big thing to people? It just comes and go. So what? Just gonna be another day. I'm not trying to be racist or anything, but honestly, I think Western family cares more about their child's birthday. If they have to spend the money to make it big, their willing to, even though it'll most probably be only one night.

And yeah.................... I'm here ranting on and on about this shit when its around a few more hours to my birthday. K I shall stop here. Sorry for making you guys read this crap. Guess my hormones are going hay-wire again. :/

Fuck my attitude. FUCK MY LIFE.

Happy New Year 2012!!! ♥

Hello people! I'm finally back from my cruise and hahaha guess what? Yep, this is gonna be a typical resolution kinda post just like everyone is doing now. I guess. :s LOL. Anyway, I must first wish everyone

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!

Hope you guys and girls can succeed in whatever you do and may all your wishes comes true! ^^

Mini sum up for 2011:

- Had my first SYF performance @ UCC Hall with my YCSS dance group. 

- Thereafter the performance, I restart & revamped my whole blog! 

- Got in and out of love.............. 

- Went for Ngee Ann Youth Leaders Camp which was super awesome!!! (Y) 

- Got back on Twitter.................... But still didnt use it much. Hahahahha. (FOLLOW LEH YOU THIS CB) 

- Got through the Dance Talent Development Programme auditions (And HERE)! OMG I WAS SUPER HAPPY LOR I CANNOT HIDE MY EXCITEMENT THAT TIME HAHAHAHAHHAA!!!!! 

- Started to do reviews for products I use.............. HERE & HERE. 

- Started up a Youtube channel with only 1 pathetic video hahahaha!! xD  

- Fell in love with Rilakkuma!!!! ♥ ♥ ♥ 

- Went to church on Christmas for the very first time! 

There should be more but I cannot really remember la. ._. I even have to look back on my archives but also not much help since I dont update often. :x I'VE STILL GOT SO MANY PICTURES LAGGED BEHIND!!!! T_T

So my New Year wish will be (not according):

1) Update this blog more often!!!! Seriously, I myself cannot tahan my own speed also hahahah dont even need to say my friends. THEY ALL RUSH UNTIL DAMN FIERCE CAN ESP ONE OF THEM YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE!!!! :@

2) Health! I've been sick really often this year I dont know why so I really wish for health!!! 

3) Money. I WANT MORE ALLOWANCE!!!!!!!! :< 

4) Beauty. I want to become more fair, have radiant and perfect skin and smaller nose!! && I also want to lose weight especially my calves cos its becoming fatter and fatter because of dancing. :( 

5) Friends! I have great friends around me and I really appreciate it. Just wish it will continue like this. ^^ 

6) Love.................... NAH JOKE ONLY!!!! I just wish to get to know more hunks and have a little flirt with them (dont judge me okay every girl do that just admit it). But nope, no more relationships for me. They are bullshit. Sickening. ._. (Sorry to those who are in relationship. Hope you guys last long yeah!)

7) Studies (just added. Almost forgot!!). Do well for O's. I just wish to make it into the school that I want. :/ 

I guess that's all for me! Btw, my birthday is coming up in a few more days. Really hope someone will buy present for me if not I will be #foreveralone. HAHAHAHAHAHA.

Peace out! ♥ xx