The saddest one ever lor!

Firstly, I'm gonna wish myself an early

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

'Cos I dont think I'll have the time to say it tomorrow as there is dtdp. :/ Its not that I'm complaining or anything la but, you know. Kind of sad that I cant spend the day with my family. Usually, we would be going out for dinner and then either have my cake blown at the restaurant OR go home and do it. We always do that and its like a tradition already!! Cant believe I'm sacrificing dance for this.

But oh well, I'm going to be sixteen already once it strikes midnight (although yes I know I still dont look like one yet) and it means I'm mature enough to understand this kind of situation and I dont feel anything near unhappy. <<<<<< HAHAHA THIS WHOLE SENTENCE IS A JOKE.

I. AM. SAD. !!!

Excuse me, but who wouldnt be right?!?! Who would rather spend their birthday dancing than heading out with their family?????!!!!! WHO. YOU TELL ME WHO. Again, just trying to make this clear, I'm not complaining. :B I'm not! Okay. Get that right.

Sigh, which comes to the conclusion, as the title says........................ THE SADDEST ONE EVER!!!! Yeah, its gonna be my saddest birthday ever I guess. T_T Fuck super-sweet sixteen, guess its never gonna happen to me eh? Sucks. I bet I wont even get a present tomorrow.

Yes, I'm gonna be planning a mini birthday celebration this weekend la. But honestly, its not as equivalent as celebrating on the actual day lor! So what if I get tons of birthday wishes on fb? Bullshit. (HAHAHA BUT STILL, SEND THEM OK!! LOL)

But one thing that I worry the most about is......................... Whether this is gonna continue. As in continue the new tradition of NOT going out to celebrate on birthdays. Uhh great, my insecurities are creeping me up again. Because maybe after this right, my parent might think that I'm kinda too old for celebrating BUT THATS TOTALLY NOT WHAT I THINK!!!

Fuck. Why do I have to be born in an Asian family, where birthdays arent really a big thing to people? It just comes and go. So what? Just gonna be another day. I'm not trying to be racist or anything, but honestly, I think Western family cares more about their child's birthday. If they have to spend the money to make it big, their willing to, even though it'll most probably be only one night.

And yeah.................... I'm here ranting on and on about this shit when its around a few more hours to my birthday. K I shall stop here. Sorry for making you guys read this crap. Guess my hormones are going hay-wire again. :/

Fuck my attitude. FUCK MY LIFE.